On selfdabba.com

Selfdabba.com is an initiative by the K himself to buy a new domain and start to blog as group. So initially K and myself had started to blog there.... But as fate has its way, am back here again because the account has been terminated with no intimation to K. So, just to fill the place here and increase the number of my posts, I am posting the two posts that I had earlier posted on selfdabba... The first post was the real self dabba by me... I have changed a couple of things here and there...but the rest of it is a copy paste from the prev post. Here I go...


Finally I find some time to just think about myself and type down a brief introduction about me. I am one of the zillion software engineers habiting the earth currently. I burn my ass staring blankly into a screen that shows me a lot that I don’t understand. But, as I am expected to solve a lot of things, I with the help of my most trusted companion Google try doing things. If you ask me if all this effort is worth the pain, you have fired a query to my mind’s processor that is gonna end in an infinite loop without an output.

After a word about the present, let me go down the memory lane just for a moment. This journey down into the origin of my existence might answer a couple of your doubts and questions. Being born in a small town in Andhra Pradesh, 25 years back, I have come a long way to be typing this from my office on an early Saturday morning here in Stuttgart, Germany. The school, the friends, the family and the teachers…every one do have a credit for the way I think, I react and the whole of my day to day existence. So, now that I am already thinking about them, why not just give a word of thanks. To all those who shaped me to be what I am, here is my big thanks.

All the confidence(over confidence might be the right word) I have in me is due to the fact that, I had the image of being intelligent and all that... In fact the arrongance I display today has its roots in my childhood. Being a sure shot contender for the quizzes, elocutions, science fairs etc had given me an iconic status in the school and in turn the not needed arrogance....They made me believe that I am a go getter and I can acheive anything in life...which is not entirely true. I am yet to come in terms with my limitations. I had tough time in accepting my faults. But, today I can honestly say that, I can accept my faults and am open to learning things from any one and everyone

My thoughts are quintessentially middle class. I love my friends. I love movies. I love good food. I love reading books. I love the security of home. I love my family and I love the run of the mill stuff :P. I am a bore. I love order. I am not much of the adventurous kinds. I almost hate being out from my routine. But, there are times when I surprise myself. I take the risks when no one really tries to go for them. I love to hold some power. One of my childhood dreams had been to be a doctor. All for being the one to have power over life and defy impending death.

One of the guys in my project, asked me if I am a taurean in our first meeting. So, if somebody could find those traits in first meetings, I might be one really. I am afraid about a lot of things. I have my reservations. I am not very good with people. I speak out at the wrong times and in the wrong tone. I wear my heart on the sleeve. But I am diplomatic to some extent. Over all of this, I try to be practical. But being the perfectionist I am, I tend to be more so. I have been accused of being heart less a lot of times before. But, cant help it... I am so... I have a lot of faith in my mind rather than the heart. But, I think a lot before making some decissions..to the point of making people think that I am fickle minded.


After reading Karteek’s post, I thought why not ask a couple of friends what they think about me. Me being me did not really expend any more energy on being creative. I love to do a copy paste…be it code or be it an idea. But then, I asked them in person what they think about me.

One guy thinks that “ I am a guy who always watches things from a distance being non committal, always advising what’s wrong, without trying to convince the person to do otherwise. In short he believes that my motto in life is one should learn by one self. The same guy tells me that I am the most obstinate person that he has ever come across and that he always feels that I would be there for him when the need arises. He told me I am pain in …you know where.” not that I understand much of what he said...but still...

One lady thinks that , “ I am rigid in my thought. I am dominating (these attributes being for both me and Karteek) but nonetheless a good friend.”

The other lady thinks that, ” I am one guy who she can turn to for anything without thinking twice. I talk a lot on topics that I like without noticing how well I am being received. She feels I am knowledgeable and practical. I am a no nonsense guy”

Karteek thinks that , “Sumanoj is yet another software guy who loves to do self-dabba. Passion for movies. Criminal intelligence. Innocent looks. Witty nature. Good discipline. Those are the hints I get if I’ve to write anything about him.”

What do I really think about myself? I never think much about. I am lazy. I am disciplined. I am a good friend. I am heavily biased. I am prejudiced. I am rigid. I learn from my mistakes. I live for myself. I do things at my own pace. I am slow in adapting. I love the security of my home. I enjoy arguing. I do boast a lot. I am technically weak. I most of the time am at extremes. I tend to be emotional at times. I take things personally when there is no reason to be personal. I have a hot temper.

Would keep adding more when I can think of. Would request all of you guys who know me to keep updating the list (the whole of the comments section is dedicated for you).